never quite enough

my home is never quite clean enough.
I never seem to get enough studying done.
my to-do list never gets shorter.
the dishes sometimes don't get done before we got to bed.
the clutter never seems to go away.
the hospital and medical bills seem to never stop coming.
I can't get thank you notes out soon enough.
the laundry never gets completely done.
I can't make the phone calls soon enough.
I worry that I'm not doing everything I can for Olivia and Joel.
I go to bed every night running through the list of things I didn't finish.


Why don't I go to bed every night thanking and praising God for everything in my life?
Why don't I seem to see the amazing blessings that He has graced our family with?
God is working in my life.
I need to be discipled.
I need to disciple.
I need to pray more.
I need to listen to God. Actually listen. Stop my blabbing and just listen.
I need to put aside my selfish pride and lay my life down.
I need encouragement.
I need understanding, forgiveness, and grace.
I need to fellowship.





and I also need to sleep...there's always that.