never quite enough

my home is never quite clean enough.
I never seem to get enough studying done.
my to-do list never gets shorter.
the dishes sometimes don't get done before we got to bed.
the clutter never seems to go away.
the hospital and medical bills seem to never stop coming.
I can't get thank you notes out soon enough.
the laundry never gets completely done.
I can't make the phone calls soon enough.
I worry that I'm not doing everything I can for Olivia and Joel.
I go to bed every night running through the list of things I didn't finish.


Why don't I go to bed every night thanking and praising God for everything in my life?
Why don't I seem to see the amazing blessings that He has graced our family with?
God is working in my life.
I need to be discipled.
I need to disciple.
I need to pray more.
I need to listen to God. Actually listen. Stop my blabbing and just listen.
I need to put aside my selfish pride and lay my life down.
I need encouragement.
I need understanding, forgiveness, and grace.
I need to fellowship.





and I also need to sleep...there's always that.

sunday

Sunday was a wonderful day.
Well, it didn't start out wonderful, but it quickly got better. Olivia woke up around 4:15 crying. This happens maybe once every two weeks, and it usually mean she somehow became unswaddled during sleeping. Joel went in, fixed her blankets, and by around 5:00 she was still crying after several attempts to calm her. So, I ended up feeding her a little, and we all got back to sleep around 5:30.
At 7:30, to keep her on her normal routine, I got her up and fed her, played, and read and by 9:30 it was nap time again! For both of us!! Joel was still sleeping so we both slept in for a little while longer. We both missed our alarms, and we got up way to late for church. I didn't hear him get up, but around 11:30...in comes Joel with breakfast!! In bed!! Oh how I love him.

And later, after Olivia was done eating, she was just cuddling, and hugging, and smiling...and just being so cute.
At Hastings Saturday night, Erika bought her a Dr. Seuss ABC book and I bought her Hop on Pop. Oh my gosh. Olivia loves to look at the books!! She sat in my lap for over a half an hour while a was reading to her and she was just staring at the books! Smiling even!! Sunday was definitely a good mood day for her.

And...Joel and I went to Hastings last night...and Season One of 24 was back!! We watched the first episodes online, and we have been waiting for it to be at Hastings to rent and it finally was.
I really like the show...but I'm totally stressed out the entire time. Like nervous stomach ache stressed out. Now that's good TV.
Then Joel had to go Hastings to get the disc cleaned because it kept freezing in the same spot on the LAST episode of the disk. OMG. And it still skipped after getting it cleaned.

Saturday night=fun.
Ordering a "normal margarita" apparently does not mean virgin strawberry margarita. It's normal to me...don't they know that??
But by around 11:00, Erika got tired. And Ashley...she's just funny.

3 months

I can't believe it!! Olivia is three months old today!!
(well, yesterday)
She is such an amazing girl.

I had more pictures, but my computer froze and I'm just now getting around to finishing.

She rolled over all by herself today!

school is hard.
Ashley and I were reminiscing freshman year when we would talk about how college was easier than high school.
oh how i wish.
hours and hours of homework every night.
but i like the stuff i'm doing.
so that's nice.