unexpected blessings

We've told people. But it never gets easier...no matter in what form I am telling it. So here goes.

Joel and I are having a baby.

I took an at-home test, and when I saw the little blue plus sign I couldn't believe what I was seeing. I ran downstairs and showed Joel. Neither of us really knew what to do, and we didn't want to believe it. Two days later we went to the hospital to get a blood test and seven hours later I got a call from a nurse saying "You are definitely pregnant! Congratulations!!" When I first heard those words, I'll admit, I smiled...but then it really sank in. Then came the tears.

Ashley and Brad were the first to hear. I was really expecting a sad sort of shock. But they were so excited!! Especially Ashley! I was so relieved and filled with joy that she reacted that way.
Then we told Rachel...she was shocked, but excited! Then we told his brother and wife...and again with the happiness. And the we called Joel's parents in Africa. AND THEY WERE HAPPY! They weren't mad or disappointed. They weren't judgmental. They were genuinely supportive and happy.

When we first found out, we were in shock, disbelief, and downright angry. Joel referred to the pill as "birth out of control." This was not supposed to be happening. Our plan was to wait until after we graduated, be married for maybe 4 or 5 years...and it wasn't even our 4 month anniversary.

But then we prayed and talked to his family. We realized that God has his own plans. If He wants us to have a baby...we're having a baby. Breaking through birth controls run in Joel's family. He was conceived after his dad had a vasectomy.

Joel and I have gotten to the point where we are excited...still unbelievably scared and nervous...but excited! We definitely have things that are unknown and seem unachievable. Like our truck isn't baby-safe. We have our eyes on a Jeep Liberty. But anyways...we know that it is going to be difficult...we know that we may not be completely ready at this point in our lives...but we will be. God is going to provide everything we need and more. We are going to graduate from college. Both of us. We will make it work. And we will make it work as a beautiful family of three.

Ashley is going to be the best auntie ever.

Oh...and my scrapbooking room is now going to be a baby room. I'd say it's a step-up.

At the Red Barn sale, Brad's mom found this incredibly cute dress and I had to have it.
(We're hoping it's a girl)

happy birthday Ashley!!!!! (2 days later...)

Ashley is officially 19!! And as Brad put it, thank you God for letting her live this long.

tonight

Erika, Ashley and I going out for dessert!! woo celebration!!!
AND Ashley's birthday is next wednesday.

I have a test tomorrow. boo.

Joel's parents and sister came here last night! woo!!!

tomorrow is monday....again

I am so unbelievably tired. I've taken 3 hours naps both today and yesterday. I am still so tired and I have so much to do.
But I do get to see John and Fay this Saturday!! Hopefully this week will go by as quickly as the rest.

more driving....

in three short hours...Joel, Ashley, Brad and I are going to Post Falls. I'm quite excited.
I have so much homework it's unbelievable. Oh, and I lined up my schedule for next semester....one of my classes is at 8:30 in the morning. I don't even have a choice...its not offered at any other time. I have trouble getting to my 10:30 class. And its not a class that I can skip. The nice thing is that Joel and a different class that is only offered at 8:30. So we both can get up sickeningly early together. The funny thing is that when I was in high school, school started at 7:45...and I usually didn't have much of a problem getting up on time. weird.

Joelie took a picture of me in my new coat. i quite like my coat.

Red Barn Sale!! this weekend!! I am so excited!! I think we are going to go on a hay ride. even though I hate anything farm related....I think this may be fun because I'll have excellent company. Otherwise...i'd prefer to see that hay burn. tee hee.

i wish i could be a full-time housewife

I really enjoy school...a lot. I love learning new things and actually being able to apply it. Like in my statics class...we are doing rigid bodies in equilibrium. I've found myself, in everyday situations, breaking down forces and figuring out all the little vector equations and resulting forces. Seriously....what's my problem? But, when I'm at home and I'm cooking or cleaning or drinking coffee while watching the food netw0rk or HGTV....I feel quite content. It would be so amazing if my job could be my home. I want my family to be my number one in life. And even now, homework sometimes gets in the way of Joel and I spending time together...I can't even imagine having a full time job plus everything else we do. But then I think....if I was a stay-at -home wife (sometime later in life "mom")....all the money I've spent on my education will be a waste, and I'll never be able to have that amazing job. I'll figure it out sometime. I have time.
Maybe I'll scrapbook my dilemma. lol

I've really been inspired by the journaling blog I've found. I'd probably use more pictures than they do....but I really like the idea. I already have a list of what I want to scrapbook. Like my goals for the month/year, my TV "schedule," my favorite things in our house, favorite meals so far (with pictures!!!), all the amazing things about Joel, all the amazing things about Ashley, the jobs that I have had, all the members of my family and the interesting/weird things about them, my pet peeves...and tons more. Maybe I'll scrapbook about how I don't ever have time to scrapbook, but I probably won't ever have time to make it. haha.

The Red Barn sale is coming up!! I am so excited to go! I have to start saving up so I can get some more cute stuff!